I like the way I am ♥

and again, 'm sorry for not updating for such a long period of time.
16 days?!

School are over, and the party just begun :D

Just came back from Siemens's surprise party @ the streets, Subang.
the food there was... okay LAH.
Photos were taken, but people like me are quite lazy to upload it since now already 1am.
not like 'm gonna sleep now.
but yea.. the word 'lazy' says it all :D

Lots more parties are coming up since holidays are near and I know you people out there might be cursing me since some of you guys are still having exams.
aww! poor thing
and yes, 'm enjoying my life now since I get to sleep anytime I WANT and wake up anytime I WANT :D
my records so far... ERM... slept at 5:30am and woke up at 3pm :D

I personally thinks that I need a driver cause 'm a busy young lady.
*Later at night 'm having a youth camp meeting and God knows whether I can make it or not. *Some party on this week ends.
*Outing with the McBlores next week
*Hana's house
See! WHO WANTS TO BE MY DRIVER?!
:( :( :(
and yes, I can be quite sarcastic sometimes.
*beat that*
still thinks 'm innocent?
think twice :D

I do have lots of faces,
so think twice if YOU wanna mess with me :D
tee hee

ohh!
Talk to my mama if you don't like my attitude!
:D

So...
am I sarcastic enough to make you guys stop calling me innocent?
'm not saying that being innocent is a bad thing,
but sometimes, don't treat me like a 3 year old small kid that doesn't know anything!
is quite annoying sometimes.
I admit 'm quite blur sometimes, but NOT all the time.
and blur doesn't make someone innocent.
btw,
being innocent is a good thing.
I love you guys calling me innocent,
but sometimes, you guys just touched my limits.
No offence.
I do know something sometimes.
and again, I am NOT always blur.
Stop treating me like you guys think your gonna make me into a bad girl if you guys tell me anything 'stupid'.
I know how to control myself.
I know I will go like...'Ewwww'! but is just human nature kay?!

p/s: no hard feelings. I still love you guys ♥

next update, Grandpa's 88th b'day :)

xoxo

wonderful journey with wonderful people ♥

Sick is so not fun although you might get to skip school :(
Throat swollen, which means my voice are kinda different at the moment,
so please stop asking me who am I when I answer the phone!
Anyway, my voice was playing hide and seek with me yesterday morning.
Thank God I found it back in the afternoon.

Had a weird dream few days ago.
I dreamt that I got pregnant and I was giving birth near the swimming pool.
'm quite sure 'm married in the dream.
lol!
my so called 'husband' which I cant really remember who he is was really excited.
so am I.
I remembered I was more excited than scared.
Surprisingly I still can remember what I dreamt after I woke up.
Normally I forgot after I woke up. Well... most of the time.

Actually I really hope to start a family in a young age.
maybe around 25 or 26.
okay.. maybe not that young but for me, 25 to 26 is the best time to get married and start a new family.
and also I THINK I will settle down around that age.
hopefully.

Was watching this Korean movie yesterday - Baby and I

BOTH of them are so cute!

*melts*

I wonder how it feels like knowing a small little living God's creation living in a mother's tummy.
Is weird how this few days everything I does are connected to babies and the future. Especially my future new family. It makes me so excited.
lol!
I know! is freaking weird!
Well.. 'm just curious I guess.
haaa!

Lastly..
I found this song in someone blog and I think is very meaningful.
and she just got married!
After listening to this song, it made me even more excited bout my new family in the future.
*^^*

Do listen to this song.
no regrets.
:)

xoxo

once again, I turned back to Him (:

I really hope you guys WILL read this post although it seems very long and kinda boring.
Do read (:

God is good :)

Is true what some people said. "Being a christian is easy, but living as a christian is never easy"
in fact, is super difficult.
I really wanna put God first in my life,
but sometimes temptations always turn my attention away from God.
For example, parties, hanging out with friends and etc.
In the past few months, I have been attending quite a lot of parties and stuff.
and guess what? most of it are on the same day as youth.
I actually choose to attend parties and skip youth.
I choose to skip the opportunity to know more about God.
and yet, I call myself a 'child of God'
'm such a liar.
Besides that, I even stop doing my quite time with God.
Stop praying for a few months.
Actually I did.
I did pray sometimes, ONLY when 'm having problems.
I actually took Him for granted.
When 'm having problems, I ask Him for help,
but when 'm happily living my life, I totally forgot about Him.
is always about me, not Him.
this is how selfish I am.

Yesterday, I have to choose between hanging out with my friends and youth too.
I actually choose to hang out with my friends.
but you know what?
something shocking happened.
I met my youth friends after hanging out with my friends for less than 1 hour at pyramid.
I even told Sylvia before that if I met my youth friends here, I am so dead.
My youth friends were leaving pyramid and heading to summit for youth and asked me whether I wanna tag along.
Well, they didn't really ask. They just called me to tag along which I cant choose whether I want to or not. I have too.
I was actually quite angry and sad at first.
On our way to summit, I was so pissed.
and they were making so much noise in the car which made me even more pissed!
but you what?
I am so glad they did.
I am so thankful that I met them at pyramid and called me to go youth with them cause today sermon was really powerful in a way that it hit me so hard that I felt like just kneeling down and cry.
Pastor shared about praying today.
He said a lot of things that reminded me how I've been treating God for the past few months.
To make it more understandable, I totally ignored Him.
and I come to realize my distance with Him has been so far away.
Still remember I always pray that God will never let me go and never let go of my hands,
but this time, is me who let Him go, 'm the one who let go of His hands.
'm really thankful that I still know how to 'u-turn' back to Him and grab His hands once again.
Honestly, I don't even dare to imagine living my life without Him cause I know it very well that my life is gonna suck to the max.

You have no ideal how much He has changed me.
Not only me, but my life too.
He changed me to a better person.
Besides that, He taught me so much about life and showed me what everlasting love means.
:)

I really learnt my lesson this time.
Hopefully I wont repeat the same mistake again.

To Azimah, Sylvia and especially Hana,
'm really sorry that I choose to go youth and left you guys at pyramid.
I really hope that you guys understand that God plays a BIG part in my life and He is SUPER important to me. without Him, I wont be who I am today and 'm very sure about it.
Hana, I know you are quite upset and pissed, but please please please try to understand.
God comes first no matter what.
and babe, you will always be my BFF, my one and only BFF. I dunno bout the future, but 'm very sure about it at this moment and is really important to have my BFF to understand me compare to my others friends. It means a lot to me.

To Fee Vien, Sheryn, Felyn and Ong,
Thank you so much. 'm quite sure I will continue ignored God if you guys didn't 'forced' me to go youth today and listen to the sermon. and also thanks to my pastor for sharing such a powerful sermon.

Lastly,
Dear Lord,
'm really sorry for my behaviour for the past few months.
I hope that you will forgive me and make sure I will hold on to you no matter what happens.
Continue to teach me, guide me and protect me O Lord. Protect me from Satan.
Take away all temptations and help me to always put You first.
in Jesus name I pray,
Amen.

God bless :)

is all about the fun now (:

To cut this post short, is better to have more pictures and less words :D

Firstly, Farah's Slutty Sweet Sixteen!

the Birthday Girl (:

Hana

Formal (:

Candid (:

♥

rocking the dance floor yo :D

the most slutty party I ever been to at the moment (:

Continuing..

Sylvia's Sarcastic Sweet Sixteen!
trust me, when I left the party, I feel like I just came out from a sex screen.
no jokes.
It was so DIRTY!

Happy Sarcastic Birthday!

*seen Elaine said I wasn't suppose to upload those 'porno' pictures,
I deleted it.*

school will never be the same without them.
♥

btw,

EXAMS ARE OVER YO!
:D

xoxo

to the new begining(:

okay. I know I haven't been updating for quite sometime.
Like what Hana said,
"why your blog so dead?"
why?
cause the owner of the blog too lazy to update it.
Tomorrow is last day of exams. Like finally. It feels like its taking forever.
Yes, I have lots of stuff to update.
Been to lots of parties recently when exams are still going on.
I promise I'll update again as soon as possible :D

loves,
lil miss McBlore

but with you, I can say anything crazy.

Currently listening to Jessica Simpson, with you.

♪♫♪

I relate to you naturally.
Everybody else just fades away.
Sometimes it's hard to breathe,
Just knowing you found me.
♪♫♪

Gahh! Its feels like my head gonna explode soon!
Dizziness always on and off,
most of the time is on.
Plan to ask my mum to take me for body check ups.
Maybe just do some blood test.
'm really sick of getting dizzy most of the time.

Having maths and moral papers tomorrow
and 'm so not really for my moral.
Maths?
I don't know how to torture myself if I don't score an A for maths.

btw,
R.I.P Stephen Gately (Boyzone)

1976-2009

Well, that's it for now.
have to continue STARE at my moral notes.
rock on!

xoxo

piece of shit!

Honestly,
I totally screwed my English essay!
I know I can write so much better compare to what I wrote earlier during my exams.
I got not enough time!
and 'm dying for an A for English.

No offence,
but my class sucks.
Like really sucks!
They just cant stop cheating during exams.
The girl sat beside me was using her hand phone to check spelling mistake.
Some of them even discussed during Bm paper.
are the teachers blind?
gosh!
now I know why my position is class always so bad.
Cause people cheated during exams and I DON'T!
dammit!
if only I got the guts to tell the teachers
and those people who cheated will hate me!
and back step me!
as usual,
no surprise.
is Assunta - girls school.
they gossip, they tell shits about you.

Ohh! and guess what.
Wednesday is my science exams
and I totally lost my science notes book!
I remembered I borrowed it to someone but I just cant remember who.
my science notes book is the only book I completed among all the others subjects.
completed as in I've done everything teacher asked me to do.
I even lost my comprehension and summary book.
'm very sure I passed up to Pn. ****s,
but she just don't bother to give me back when the others already got back their book.
I bet En.H thinks 'm lying when I told him my book is with Pn. ****s!
witness - Pam saw I passed up my book to Pn.****s
'm telling you, that witch!
she's making my life miserable.
from moral to English!
how great,
I haven't even memorize my moral for exams and I haven't complete my works for moral.
She's gonna kill me sooner of later.
dammit!
I hate my class la!

because you dont deserve a second chance.

currently listening to The Little Things by Colbie Caillat .

Having finals next week and 'm here blogging instate of studying.
One more hour till my nap time.
Guess I should maybe study a little?
haiz..
No mood already.
rock on my dear readers.
♥

currently rocking ROXY!

xoxo

Are you in for it?

YO!

GUESS WHAT?!

HIGH PRAISE YOUTH CAMP ARE BACK!

THIS YEAR THEAM : WIFI
YES!
WE'RE IN FOR IT :D
ARE YOU?

Come and join us as we learn together how to be an effective team with people of different abilities, talents and personalities. Get to know more friends and have FUN, FUN and MORE FUN with us.

Camp Speaker, Rev. Nicholas Choo.

• Worked with children and young people since 1977.
• Traveled to many countries to do children's ministry work.
• Specialized in conducting camp, rallies and seminars for children and adults.
• Conducted conference for leaders, teachers and parents.
TRUST ME!
His a very good speaker.
Not only he share his sermon in an interesting way,
but he also teaches magics and bring lots laughter.

Camp Details.

Date: 16th to 19th December (4 days 3 nights)
Venue: Hotel Seri Malaysia, Bagan Lalang, Sepang.
Price: Rm320 without T-shirt
Rm340 with T-shirt
(inclusive of accommodation, sharing, transportation and meals)

* RM10 deposit upon registration.

* Shirts purchased on site will be Rm30.

Sigh up before 15th of November 09'

WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?
SIGN UP NOW!
:D

* For more information,
please do leave a message in my chat box or comment in this post.
I will reply you as soon as possible.
You can also visit our youth camp blog for more updates.
click here.

Youth Camp 08'
ID Me.

xoxo

Confessions.

Forever is over honey.

'm officially 'letting-it-go'
Its just a matter of time I guess.
Ohh well..
What is done is done,
the past will always be the past.
Or maybe I should put it this way,
OUR past will always be OUR past.

'm sick of tearing whenever I think of you already.
I wont blame you for what happened between us.
I know what happened between us are special.
But too bad it has come to an end.
Is really upsetting to even know our friendship are 'kinda' over.
I tried to hold on to our friendship,
but not anymore.
I had enough of your acting honey.
It hurt so bad to see you with someone else doing the same thing we used to do.
You made what happened between us not special anymore.
and so,
our memories had became rubbish to me.

I admit I once loved you.
Knowing that we were just friends makes me wanna forget about you.
and Yes!
Is hard to get over you.
I tried to move on many times and failed many times too.
but now,
I can proudly announce that 'm officially over you.
Like OVER YOU!
meaning not interested in you anymore.

Yup people,
my life is VERY complicated.
Like really VERY VERY complicated.
But guess what?
I have Jesus in my life,
so I don't have to worry bout anything.
I know He is in control :)
No matter how complicated my life is,
Jesus will always be by my side and make it 'not-so-complicated' for me.

I can smile even without you.
I have Jesus.

♥

xoxo

Listen! Su Ann got something to say!

Quote by me.

One Rule.
Males are not allow to read.

• 'm quite sure 'm not in my right mind right now.
• My face got so many pimples :(
• 'm so lazy to do others things now besides blogging.
• Having study dates with Pamela and Sylvia tomorrow morning.
• Males always do things last minute.
• Slept at 5:30am last night.
• So sick of males right now.
• NEVER trust someone with their promises especially males.
• Facebook can be quite boring sometimes.
• I suggest, he agree.
• Correction, we both agree.
• Males can be so fake sometimes.
• Males always do stuff without thinking others people feelings.
• He actually repeated exacly what he did to me last time with someone else,
even the way he talk. SUPER FAKE!
• Wanna go shopping right now :D
• Think 'm sleeping late tonight.
• Wanna screw males up.

Sometimes males never follow the rule.
so for safety,
Sorry males,
'm just frutrated now.
and I dont mean what I said?
haa! right.
I still love males.
haa! whatever.

p/s:
What I wrote here, it just came out by random.
If you dont like it,
just click the Red 'x' button on the top right of your window.

xoxo

Undisclosed clips?

I've been spending TOO much time on youtube.
Basically...
6 hours per day to be exact.
So I guess I should show you guys what I've discover on youtube?
lol!
random much huh?
haaa



'm so gonna learn this.
maybe I should really take up keyboard class :)



Is a MUST listen song.
Wanna dedicate this video to all the girls out there.
A Girl Can Dream ♥

xoxo

10 points out of 10!

Plans for September, October, November and December :)

Let's see...
October.
Study dates with Sylvia Wong and Pamela Choi on next Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.
Hana's house on either Monday or Tuesday for Raya.
Exams.

Finals ends on the 22nd of October.
Go school until 30th of October and that will be my end of form 4 life :(

HOLIDAYS yo!

November.
Go Hana's house.
Learn dancing with Hana.
SHOPPING with the love ones.
Beijing with family.
Youtube!
Spend more quite time with God!
MOVIES!

December.
Youth Camp.
Learn dancing with Hana.
Youtube!
Spend time with the love ones.
Spend time with Him ♥
movies!
SHOPPING!
study a little?

Aim:
Must know how to dance Again and Again by end of November.
Learn Genie dance steps from Hana by end of December.
Learn how to be a slut from Farah?
nah~ *kinda impossible* lol!
Score 'A' for Maths English and Science for finals!
Take lots of photo in Beijing!
Have lots of fun in youth camp.

EXCITED yo!
:D

Hopefully there's no any changes.

xoxo

Once in a life time ♥ ♥ ♥

Few more hours till the end of my sweet sixteen :(
Wish I could turn back the time to yesterday night again.
Firstly, I wanna thank
Hana! for planing a party for me.
Sylvia for drinking the sparking juice and also the preparation.
Elaine for your house and the awesome party.
Farah for being a slut to entertainment us.
Pam for the secret recipe cake and also the preparation.
Jasmine for being there.
Azima for sneaking out the house just to celebrate with me.
Azima's boyfriend for driving her there.
lol
Thank you so much guys!
Thanks for all the troubles you guys went through just to throw a party for me.
Thanks for all the memories you guys had given me.
Thanks for aiming me as a target for water balloons?!
haaa!
Thanks for cleaning up after I left too.
but most of all,
Thanks for all the love you guys had given me.
Those messages you guys wrote on the balloons are priceless
and I really love all the presents you guys gave me.
and most of all,
I LOVE YOU GUYS!
I really thank God for He has blessed me a group of people like you guys :)

I will never forget the moment you guys asked me to prove my non innocence by doing pole dancing and being a slut!
the truth is,

I AM NOT INNOCENT!
Face it people!
I can be 10% of Lady GaGa!
LOL!!!

Continuing,
the heart to heart talk was awesome!
and the truth or dare was scary and freaking.
LOL!
WATER BALLOONS!
Geez! Thanks for aiming me as the target.
haaa, but I had fun running away from you guys.
6 vs 1
Gosh!
:D

p/s: do check out Hana and Elaine's blog.
They updated bout the party and it was pretty funny.

click below.
Hana's
Elaine's

ohh!
I wanna thank my church mates for celebrating my birthday today too.
Thanks for the cake and pizza
and also the wonderful time we had together.
I had lots of fun :)

I uploaded all the pictures to Facebook already,
check it out if you want to.
I will upload it here as soon as possible too,
but not now,
I need to do some youtube-ing first.
tee hee

Lastly,

THANK YOU SO MUCH!
♥

xoxo

sadly, he only appears in my dreams.

I found my personal McCreamy yo!

NICHKHUN!

9:03pm
*in the process of finding which pictures to upload, too many already*

9:36pm
'm done!

Lets begin with his cuteness :)


Moving on, his coolness :D

His handsomeness?


Sexiness yo!

*melts*

Conclusion?

he's super duper hawt LAH!

Is kinda hard to guess where is he from by just looking at his baby face.
He's from Thailand!
unbelievable ehh?
His one of the member from Korean band - 2pm

ahhh ~ melts*

xoxo